In Drama class tomarrow, I have to perform my private moment. Lee Strasbourg described that all actors, no matter what, have a private moment. It's a moment where you do something that you would never, EVER, EVER let anyone see you do or if they caught you you would stop immediately. It has to be personal and PG-13-mild R (for school purposes)
Honestly, I'm drawing a blank. I don't know WHAT I do that I don't let anyone see. I'm a private sort of person really, but those moments are very uninteresting. WHAT do I do that I would never let someone see?
The thing is, I have to PERFORM it tomarrow, in front of the class like no one is there. If I'm able to do it, I'll be able to grow as an actor. You have to be able to do EVERYTHING in front of EVERYONE to be an actor. Especially when you're getting paid. If I can't think of anything, then I'm screwed.

I freaking SUCK a improv. I know that it's my first year acting and all, but WOW...I suck. I had this one thing where I was given a situation, and that wasn't so bad. I had some good moments. It's just...I don't do funny. I'm not a funny person like that. I'm funny when I tell stories or do random things. But improv games are my weakest point. It's terrible. I've got to study that REALLY REALLY hard to be able to do anything. >>'

I'm thinking about joining the local community theatre this summer. See how things go. Maybe I'll be able to get thespian points and become a Thespian (It's like a national honors organization for actors..named after the famous Greek actor Thespis). I don't know. I'm so confused. Why the hell do I want to be an actor so much?

Cosplay is currently freaking me out. I don't know why, it just is. I don't quite know who or what I'll be doing in the next months, but I'm just taking it one day at a time. I'm currently getting Dino ready. I REALLY need an artist or tattoo artist to draw the huge ass tattoos onto my arm hand and neck in Henna. If I can maintain them in henna I should be able to keep the tattoos for even a year even with maintenance.
Isabella is a whole other spiel. I'm not even touching her til Spring break, maybe. My sewing mehchine is currently out of commission. I'm really not inspired right now to do much of anything.

I drew something today. It was a dress with no body. It was cool. Until I ruined it with marker. I need a dress form. And Art classes.

My face hurts. Hmmm... I think I want to study acting England...but I have no idea how the HELL that's going to work.

The 44th President of the United States of America was inaugurated today. President Obama looked so regal and serene when they played the Aria for him. I respect him now. Anyone who can see the beauty of music is worth my time. I wish him luck. And I will never forget that moment.

I'm off to do homework now. Probably read my Shakespeare plays. Trying to find a monologue for the bloody competition.